I just got back from the SWE (Society of Women Engineers) conference. I’ve been a member for a few years. This year I went mostly to talk to people that used to work with my wife. To make sure they knew she passed since she only worked with a lot of the women through emails and conference calls. I know that other people there could do it, but I thought that it should fall to me to do it.
I managed to hit the career fair and I was able to talk to a couple of companies. I need to follow up with them by looking up intern reqs.
The highlight was able to spend time with one of my friends. We met back at CSUN when I was doing history. Back then she told me to go into computer science and not that I’m doing computer engineering, she will never stop telling me, “I told you so.” The second high point of the weekend was I won a 50 dollar Amazon gift card. So there’s that.
The downside was I had a slight breakdown, I was just missing her so much since this was her element she loved the conference and I was alone.
I asked my friend who had lost her husband a few years ago, if it gets easier. She said it doesn’t, it is like losing a limb, you learn to adapt. I hope I can learn fast.
Here are some pics from the conference
I had a circuits lab and a design project due. I had to pull an all nighter to get it all done before my flight out to Philadelphia.
Did I do well on them… well only time will tell.
Time to go deep and get back to the grind. I’ve been letting myself get distracted and need to remember why I’m here, why I’m back in school. Originally it was to get my degree and head home to be with her. Well fate has a way of changing plans. So my new one is to get my degree and put these skills to good use and hopefully use the skills I learned as a historian to added use.
In an effort to do that I need to focus at the things right in front of me. Four engineering classes. I need to put them in their place and get through them. If that means going deep and becoming a ghost in the sea, then that is what I need to do.
To quote Gunnery Sergeant Hartman, your senior Drill Instructor Because I am hard, you will not like me. But the more you hate me, the more you will learn. I am hard but I am fair.
And that in a nutshell in engineering at Virginia Tech.
I bought music for the first time in ages. Normally if there is something I want to listen too I’ll just fire up Spotify and listen to it. But I wanted some Who to listen to on my iPod (Yes I still have an iPod) so I went to iTunes and bought The Who Hits 50! Deluxe edition. And now while I type this I’m listening to I Can See For Miles. I think it comes down to this and Baba O’Riley as my favorite Who song, but then there is See Me, Feel Me ok I like a few of their songs.
This has been a pretty busy week. I just finished my first major design project for my Introduction to Computer Engineering class. Then I had a lab for Circuit Analysis, and a test for the Circuit Analysis lecture. I still have homework to do but I left that book on campus so I’ll have to do it tomorrow. So for a little bit tonight I get to catch my breath, relax then start it all over again tomorrow.
My trip to the SWE conference is rapidly approaching I need to start getting my stuff together. I’m going to do some shilling for the Vets@VT while I’m’ there, see if we can interest some companies in some veteran only opportunities in Tech.
Then once that is done and I get back to Blacksburg then it will be time to prep for my Thanksgiving trip up to visit some old friends in New Hampshire.
Well it is almost my bed time and I have to get up early and do some homework.
My birthday is coming up as I write this it is about an hour and half from now. I used to love my birthday, Loved all the people taking time of their schedules to send me a quick note.
But that is all gone, now I’m dreading it. Because the one person I was to get a text, or a tweet, or a Facebook post is gone. I’ll never get to hear her voice again. I am alone.
I know I have friends that tell me I’m not alone, but at the end of the day it isn’t true, they have families and lie’s that don’t involve me. If push comes to shove thy have many more things that are more important to then than me.
I don’t say this as an insult to my friends, but simply that I know that I’m not the top priority in their life.
One last note to my friends, just let me mope today, I’ll be fine in time but today just hurts more than normal. Think of the person most important to you and now imagining on your birthday you know you will never hear from them again. That is how I’m feeling. Just be glad you only have to imagine that and not live it like me.
Wow. After dropping one of my classes I thought it would get a little easier but nope… I sent most of the day cranking out homework. Hopefully it is just that I’m rusty at this school thing and soon I’ll get into my groove.
My first test is Friday so let’s hope I do well.
The first week of classes are over. I worked through part of the homework, and there is still more to do. And the topper is that there I have a Circuit Analysis test next week. Hopefully I can do the homework and make my equation sheet and ace this test.
Also this week I need to start my Circuit Analysis Lab. Hopefully I wont blow up too many circuits 🙂
Almost time for bed, I have three classes in the morning.
My friend had brought me this from San Diego. Once it was opened it really smelled like I just opened a bottle of root beer. Sadly once I took a sip of it, it tasted more like root beer mixed with wine. So I think for me it was a one and done. But I really want to try their regular cider, I bet it will be great.